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Re: diaper lover 21 Jun 2021 19:54 #370069

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Just Found this forum and I relate to this a lot, and i also struggle with this, if anyone else has this struggle please PM me, would love to get some advice as well.
Thanks.

Re: Blah blah blah 21 Jun 2021 19:05 #370068

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Keep this GYE adage to your heart:
1000 times is never enough. Once is too much.
אם יהיו חטאיכם כשנים, כשלג ילבינו
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Thanks David. I am in quarantine now, so it's just me and the G-d for the next 10 days or so. I'm just gonna skip it.
אם יהיו חטאיכם כשנים, כשלג ילבינו

Re: Blah blah blah 21 Jun 2021 18:56 #370065

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14 days yay. 
considered acting out the other day. Out of boredom really. Decided against it because I read somewhere that ejaculate within 24-48 hours of previous ejaculation has 50% less sperm in the semen. Wife is trying to conceive so gotta keep the sperm count high.Whatever works I guess 
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Snowflake wrote on 21 Jun 2021 13:23:
B"H day #43 clean

I tried smelling stuff and it's really funny not feeling any smells at all. I just came up with a shayle. Do I do bore miney besomin on the next havdole? But I think not right? It's a birkos neheynin. If I'm not neheyne...? Right? Dunno...
Might ask a Rov.

EDIT: Just as I thought:
dinonline.org/2020/09/30/loss-of-smell-due-to-covid/

The Halacha is that one that lost the ability to smell should not make a Bracha on Besomim. But there are three scenarios that can change the the way you would make Havdala this week.

If there are no household members that can smell, don’t make a Bracha on the Besomim(1). (Just skip it, the rest of the Havdala is the same.)

If there are other members of the household that are over Bar/Bas Mitzva, and did not lose the sense of smell, let them make the Bracha on the Besomim, since you can’t be Motzie them(2). In this case make sure not to say Amen on their Bracha(3). (Since that would be a Hefsek between your Hagafen and the drinking of the wine.)

If the only one that did not lose the sense of smell is a child under Bar/Bas Mitzva, but old enough to understand the need for Havdala, (which is around the age of 7), you should make the Bracha to be Motzie the child(4).

1 שו“ע או“ח סימן רצ“ז ס“ה

2 משנה ברורה שם ס“ק י“ג

3 עיין בשערי תשובה קס“ז ס“ק י“א

4 שו“ע או“ח סימן רצ“ז ס“ה

"If I am not for myself, who will be for me? But if I am only for myself, who am I? If not now, when?"
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B"H day #43 clean
Last night my fever shot up to 102+ (39 C), even after taking dipyrone (an anti-pyretic twice as strong as tylenol). I was really not ok. Shivering non-stop, I went to the hospital. B"H they gave me more fever medicine, ran some tests and all was fine so they discharged me. My nose is really stuffed up and I'm sneezing all the time. But B"H I woke up refreshed, the fever finally receded. Mamash a neis.
It came to me that it sucks to be alone. I wish I had a wife to take care of me. But Bez"H I'll find a new bashert.
On the plus side, my parents were very helpful and are doing my groceries and whatnot.
On the tayve levels, the nice thing about being sick is you don't feel any taive at all. You just wanna make it through the day lol.
I tried smelling stuff and it's really funny not feeling any smells at all. I just came up with a shayle. Do I do bore miney besomin on the next havdole? But I think not right? It's a birkos neheynin. If I'm not neheyne...? Right? Dunno...
Might ask a Rov.

EDIT: Just as I thought:
dinonline.org/2020/09/30/loss-of-smell-due-to-covid/
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Last Edit: 21 Jun 2021 13:26 by Snowflake.
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Re: What should I do? 21 Jun 2021 06:57 #370060

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DavidT wrote on 20 Jun 2021 19:15:

Rt234 wrote on 20 Jun 2021 18:25:
First of all Thank you!! 
Just one thing even though progress is important the ultimate goal is clean forever.
Correct me if I'm wrong.
Thank you again!

You are not wrong. Our goal should definitely be to be 100% clean forever, but the only way to get there is by focusing on the current moment.  

I like to think of it as the final destination of a long road trip with each day being like the next stop for gas or where you plan on sleeping over. You may occasionally think about the final stop, but most of the time you are focused on getting to the next gas station before you run out of gas or getting to the next exciting part of your trip.
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Last Edit: 21 Jun 2021 07:04 by wilnevergiveup.
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love to hear it
Think about how good you'll feel if you say no to desire and compare that to how bad you'll feel if you say yes.

Desire is unique in the way that it is never fulfilled -  if you give in the desire comes back even more powerful in just a few days. Telling yourself that its ok because this is really the last time doesn't work because you are just adding new images to your head that will cause future falls.

The Joy of triumph over the yetzer hara is worth the effort it takes to win. It IS worth it! Keep fighting!


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Day #140!
I feel like a different person. 
Although work still needs to be done for my shmiras enayim, but I'm in a much better place than I used to be.
Thank you Hashem!
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Re: What should I do? 20 Jun 2021 23:18 #370052

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Re: Square one 20 Jun 2021 21:49 #370051

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Day 66
Clean bh 
Had a bit of a slip today, I had to borrow a friend's laptop and I searched up one or 2 things I shouldn't have. No porn or inappropriate stuff, but stuff that could lead to me masturbating, so wasn't a great moment. Gonna try move on
Been having negative feelings about yeshiva recently, I'm speaking to a Rebbe on Wednesday or Thursday, but I'm gonna have to suck it up for a a couple of days. 
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Grant400 wrote on 20 Jun 2021 15:53:
I was just reading through this discussion again. It's a good read. (If you aren't the subject being examined under the microscope

Just wanted to use this opportunity to remind everyone to please PM me if they feel something was triggering in an unnecessary way. I do try much harder to leave all that stuff out, and write in a much more vague way, but you never know. I really don't want to be responsible for someone getting triggered...

I must say that I was slightly confused when I saw something was written on this older thread- by The General himself, no less!- and jumped to the conclusion that you had mistakenly written the next chapter here... 
But alas, I must continue waiting with bated breath. 

Re: What should I do? 20 Jun 2021 19:15 #370049

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Rt234 wrote on 20 Jun 2021 18:25:
First of all Thank you!! 
Just one thing even though progress is important the ultimate goal is clean forever.
Correct me if I'm wrong.
Thank you again!

You are not wrong. Our goal should definitely be to be 100% clean forever, but the only way to get there is by focusing on the current moment.  
"If I am not for myself, who will be for me? But if I am only for myself, who am I? If not now, when?"
feel free to reach out @  ahavayirah@gmail.com

Re: What should I do? 20 Jun 2021 18:25 #370047

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First of all Thank you!! 
Just one thing even though progress is important the ultimate goal is clean forever.
Correct me if I'm wrong.
Thank you again!

Re: What should I do? 20 Jun 2021 18:25 #370046

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First of all Thank you!! 
Just one thing even though progress is important the ultimate goal is clean forever.
Correct me if I'm wrong.
Thank you again!
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