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Re: Chapter 2 - שבע יפול צדיק וקם 14 Nov 2022 00:13 #387666

Day #3.
Posting here to keep myself accountable.

Re: Chapter 2 - שבע יפול צדיק וקם 20 Nov 2022 02:04 #387981

Day #1. It's been about 34 hours!

As you can see from the day count, I have been struggling these last few weeks. I need to stick to the plan, daily posts, daily texts, putting away unfiltered devices, etc. This past week, I actually made a breakthrough with my personal organization and structure. I hope that the combination of being more intentional with the rest of my life plus sticking to my plan will yield better results.

I have to say though... I am pretty apathetic to this struggle at this point. When I was in kollel and afterwards before I joined GYE, I was masturbating and looking at pornography a whole lot more than now. Not only the frequency, but the sessions themselves were longer. I was so ashamed of myself. I didn't know what to do. Lots of prayers. Hopes. The struggle was on my mind all the time. At this point, my struggle doesn't really take up a whole lot of mental space. My reaction to a fall is typically nothing more than a shrug of the shoulders and a comment like "that was dumb" and then I move on with my life to all of the good that I put out into the world.

My most recent resolution was 30 days of daily texts, daily posts, etc. I'm going to knock that number down to five days. Tonight is Motzei Shabbos. Five days will be Wednesday night. I posted today. I'm going to send a text after I submit this and will do the same daily.

Re: Chapter 2 - שבע יפול צדיק וקם 21 Nov 2022 03:15 #388040

Day #2. Daily post.

Re: Chapter 2 - שבע יפול צדיק וקם 23 Nov 2022 16:44 #388158

Struggling. When I started my current role, I was given an unfiltered laptop and unfiltered smartphone. I was worried and had discussions with the IT department to find filtering solutions. Not going to happen. I reached out for support on GYE and through text and I was able to go a full calendar year without looking at pornography -- with easily accessible unfiltered devices. Now, easy access seems to be the main issue.

The only reason I am thinking about this topic now is because I am reaching out for help, support, and accountability. Otherwise, I don't have any desire for pornography and masturbation. I rarely to never think about it during the day. I am busy with my job, family, and other interests. But at 11:00 at night or later, when I am the last one up, and I have an urge, I indulge.

I don't want to do this anymore, so I am going to resolve to do the following:
1. Daily posts.
2. Daily texts.
3. Lock my workbag in my car overnight. <-- Obviously, I can just go outside and get it, but especially now that it is colder and opening and closing the door at that hour is a disturbance to my family members, I think it may do the trick.

Re: Chapter 2 - שבע יפול צדיק וקם 25 Nov 2022 00:56 #388228

Day #2. Staying accountable.

Re: Chapter 2 - שבע יפול צדיק וקם 26 Nov 2022 23:32 #388281

Day #3. Unfiltered devices are locked in my car. Staying accountable.

Re: Chapter 2 - שבע יפול צדיק וקם 27 Nov 2022 03:03 #388299

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שבע יפול צדיק וקם wrote on 26 Nov 2022 23:32:
Day #3. Unfiltered devices are locked in my car. Staying accountable.

A gut vuch!
stay strong buddy! Don’t go to your car (unless your going to get rid off them )
even for something else cause we know how it works go get the flash light and then once your there… so just don’t go for anything till the morning…looking forward to see your happy post tomorrow that you stay strong!
but can I ask you chaver why you have such devices in your car like are you planning on selling them on Amazon ?!??
Guys the only way were really gonna get help is with H’s help so we gotta beg him for help and he sure will help us cause he wants us helped!!
CRY TO HIM!!
https://guardyoureyes.com/forum/2-What-Works-for-Me/387630-Powerful!#387630

Don’t fall back even one step:https://guardyoureyes.com/forum/4-On-the-Way-to-90-Days/386598-Why-is-it-so-hard?limit=15&start
Feel free to pm me!
Last Edit: 27 Nov 2022 03:04 by Geshmak!.

Re: Chapter 2 - שבע יפול צדיק וקם 27 Nov 2022 05:28 #388316

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Also, you cannot put an Internet filter on your eyes, mind, and hands. Thinking that I am "out of the woods" because I have a filter or because I adjusted the settings on my filter has not worked for me.

  Appreciate the messages you bring on the chat, I am eagerly khapping ur words geshmak!
To my dear friend reading this:
You are an incredible yid for just being on this site, I am breath taken after each post or new person that comes on and shares a bit about himself, keep it up. You guys are mamash matzlichim in your own ways of growth and Hashem is proud of each one of you! (that includes me too) lol.

KEEP UP YOUR TREMENDOUS UPLIFTING IN THE AVODAH OF EMES!!

Thanks for reading! Stay shtark, I am also being challenged, just build your confidence, never quit no matter what, you are your strongest enemy and yet you are your strongest savior so you choose, I am not saying it's easy but am saying it's possible just takes effort and work!!
-from Emes-A-Yid

Re: Chapter 2 - שבע יפול צדיק וקם 27 Nov 2022 05:33 #388317

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I am rooting for you, B'hatzlacha Rabah. Keep it up, very impressed with your realisome you put to the table. Real contimplation and effort you have posted will bz'h affect you and also others only for the good, I am proud although it sounds weird because I don't have any kesher to you lol, but seeing the chashuvey oilam pushim and striving for gadlus is aa success on its own! Keep it up again I am rooting you on !!  
To my dear friend reading this:
You are an incredible yid for just being on this site, I am breath taken after each post or new person that comes on and shares a bit about himself, keep it up. You guys are mamash matzlichim in your own ways of growth and Hashem is proud of each one of you! (that includes me too) lol.

KEEP UP YOUR TREMENDOUS UPLIFTING IN THE AVODAH OF EMES!!

Thanks for reading! Stay shtark, I am also being challenged, just build your confidence, never quit no matter what, you are your strongest enemy and yet you are your strongest savior so you choose, I am not saying it's easy but am saying it's possible just takes effort and work!!
-from Emes-A-Yid

Re: Chapter 2 - שבע יפול צדיק וקם 28 Nov 2022 00:51 #388366

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Hey! What’s up? How’d the night go????
Guys the only way were really gonna get help is with H’s help so we gotta beg him for help and he sure will help us cause he wants us helped!!
CRY TO HIM!!
https://guardyoureyes.com/forum/2-What-Works-for-Me/387630-Powerful!#387630

Don’t fall back even one step:https://guardyoureyes.com/forum/4-On-the-Way-to-90-Days/386598-Why-is-it-so-hard?limit=15&start
Feel free to pm me!

Re: Chapter 2 - שבע יפול צדיק וקם 28 Nov 2022 02:17 #388376

Day #5. All good. See above for explanation re: unfiltered devices. Preventing access has helped me throughout my struggle, but sometimes we have access. I have had a long stretch, as I noted above, with unfiltered devices accessible. Just have to use other methods.

Re: Chapter 2 - שבע יפול צדיק וקם 28 Nov 2022 04:08 #388392

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שבע יפול צדיק וקם wrote on 28 Nov 2022 02:17:
Day #5. All good. See above for explanation re: unfiltered devices. Preventing access has helped me throughout my struggle, but sometimes we have access. I have had a long stretch, as I noted above, with unfiltered devices accessible. Just have to use other methods.

Amazing! Keep it up!
Btw love your username not the יפול part… but the part you call yourself a צדק!! Bh u know your real value…
Guys the only way were really gonna get help is with H’s help so we gotta beg him for help and he sure will help us cause he wants us helped!!
CRY TO HIM!!
https://guardyoureyes.com/forum/2-What-Works-for-Me/387630-Powerful!#387630

Don’t fall back even one step:https://guardyoureyes.com/forum/4-On-the-Way-to-90-Days/386598-Why-is-it-so-hard?limit=15&start
Feel free to pm me!

Re: Chapter 2 - שבע יפול צדיק וקם 29 Nov 2022 00:11 #388462

Day #6. All good and staying accountable.

Re: Chapter 2 - שבע יפול צדיק וקם 30 Nov 2022 00:44 #388555

Day #7. Daily post. 

Re: Chapter 2 - שבע יפול צדיק וקם 30 Nov 2022 01:16 #388556

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שבע יפול צדיק וקם wrote on 06 Sep 2022 00:59:
Malbim on the first chapter of Yehoshua. G-d tells Yehoshua in a most epic speech to chazak v'ematz. What are those two languages of "be strong?"

כתב מלבי"ם התחלת התעוררות הגבורה תקרא בלשון חזוק, וקיומה והתמדתה שהוא אומץ הלב תקרא בלשון אמוץ.

The term chizuk refers to the initial surge of strength and power whereas the term imutz refers to the consistent determination, the unwavering quality that allows the person to continue to be strong. 

כי העזר העליון יחול כפי ההכנה האנושיית.
Help from on High presents according to human arrangements.
 I poured my heart out to G-d time and time again asking for forgiveness and asking for help in my struggle. The "answer" to my prayers was not the removal of my sexual urges. The "answer" to my prayers was that I found and began to participate in this holy online GYE community. The "answer" to my prayers were the tools that I could do the proper הכנות האנושיות, human plans and preparations, to create a medium for G-d to present His heavenly help.

thanks, can I get in touch with you, appreciate the chizuk, I am at 7 days too
To my dear friend reading this:
You are an incredible yid for just being on this site, I am breath taken after each post or new person that comes on and shares a bit about himself, keep it up. You guys are mamash matzlichim in your own ways of growth and Hashem is proud of each one of you! (that includes me too) lol.

KEEP UP YOUR TREMENDOUS UPLIFTING IN THE AVODAH OF EMES!!

Thanks for reading! Stay shtark, I am also being challenged, just build your confidence, never quit no matter what, you are your strongest enemy and yet you are your strongest savior so you choose, I am not saying it's easy but am saying it's possible just takes effort and work!!
-from Emes-A-Yid
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