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Re: Destination - 90 days, A human beings journey. 29 Nov 2022 16:05 #388501

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Im glad to hear that suffering together makes it easier for you, it helped me too. 
thank you. 

Re: Destination - 90 days, A human beings journey. 29 Nov 2022 17:57 #388514

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chancy wrote on 29 Nov 2022 16:05:
Im glad to hear that suffering together makes it easier for you, it helped me too. 
thank you. 

Not so much the suffering together… more the fighting together! I know you two have it much harder then me and your both so strong and are fighting the fight so well I can’t be a loser I gotta fight too! Thx so much for posting last night… bh I didn’t do anything (else) from after my post…
Guys the only way were really gonna get help is with H’s help so we gotta beg him for help and he sure will help us cause he wants us helped!!
CRY TO HIM!!
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Don’t fall back even one step:https://guardyoureyes.com/forum/4-On-the-Way-to-90-Days/386598-Why-is-it-so-hard?limit=15&start
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Re: Destination - 90 days, A human beings journey. 29 Nov 2022 21:52 #388549

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I disassociated, my brain does that when my emotions are too overwhelming and i cant function. Basically my emotions are turned off (my negative emotions) I cant feel any of my 5 yr old feelings right now. Problem is, when i disassociate from my feelings i become what Pete Walker calls a "human doing" i need to be stimulated 24/7 in order to feel alive. I'm always up and ready to do. Its nice because it feels good to not have negative feelings and be so outgoing and exciting, but since i need to be stimulated 24/7, whenever im not stimulated i get turned on. I go straight to anything sexual. Even being on GYE makes me turned on. Im a little lost. And yes my streak doesn't make a difference to me because i feel like im on day 1 sexually. ( Im turned on the whole day)\

Lets see hoe long i can last! If i last till 110 days I'm going to buy tickets for a vaca to Florida. Yes its that hard. No amount of days makes my needing to be stimulated constantly go away, so it will be really hard.

Basically to explain it better, my sexual feelings are not the result of pleasure or desire. They are a result of needing constant stimulation. If im stimulated from morning to night i will be ok. If i go near anything that turns me on when im not stimulated---my bosy needs to be stimulated to feel alive.   I WILL GET TO MY VACA TO FLORIDA. (only the thought of exciting stimulation can make me avoid porn/masturbating in this state
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Re: Destination - 90 days, A human beings journey. 30 Nov 2022 21:30 #388633

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96. IM already feeling a little more of my emotions. And a little less interest in going to Florida. But I'm still clean. That's what counts.
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Re: Destination - 90 days, A human beings journey. 02 Dec 2022 09:05 #388752

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Re: Destination - 90 days, A human beings journey. 04 Dec 2022 02:26 #388829

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Human being wrote on 02 Dec 2022 09:05:
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I See You Hit Day 100! proud of you!! KEEP IT UP   
To my dear friend reading this:
You are an incredible yid for just being on this site, I am breath taken after each post or new person that comes on and shares a bit about himself, keep it up. You guys are mamash matzlichim in your own ways of growth and Hashem is proud of each one of you! (that includes me too) lol.

KEEP UP YOUR TREMENDOUS UPLIFTING IN THE AVODAH OF EMES!!

Thanks for reading! Stay shtark, I am also being challenged, just build your confidence, never quit no matter what, you are your strongest enemy and yet you are your strongest savior so you choose, I am not saying it's easy but am saying it's possible just takes effort and work!!
-from Emes-A-Yid

Re: Destination - 90 days, A human beings journey. 04 Dec 2022 04:57 #388839

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Thank you so much @emes a yid!    

1 hundo'   boyz!!!!
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Re: Destination - 90 days, A human beings journey. 04 Dec 2022 14:03 #388856

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Human being wrote on 04 Dec 2022 04:57:
Thank you so much @emes a yid!    

1 hundo'   boyz!!!!

Now you're talking buddy!! Keep on driving that fast lane!!

Re: Destination - 90 days, A human beings journey. 04 Dec 2022 15:16 #388861

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Mazel Tov on 100. Keep it up tzaddik, and keep inspiring with thought provoking posts.
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Re: Destination - 90 days, A human beings journey. 11 Dec 2022 07:25 #389266

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107. Thank you Hashem. I was ruminating about how my siblings are nice in appearance this Shabbos. I then had a profound thought. Look how beautiful lives we can have when the only people who we care about "rating" are our family. I was thinking to myself, imagine I walked outside evaluating how everyone passing by looked, spoke, made me feel. How are they dressed? does there face have nice features? Tall short, I was thinking. Wow thank you Hashem that I'm living a life as someone who has so so so much more time then the world around me because I don't spend half my day on my sexual desires. TYH
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Re: Destination - 90 days, A human beings journey. 12 Dec 2022 05:37 #389302

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108. my worst day since I started my count. I have to pick myself up. i spent the last hour sexualized browsing. Im making a new count for myself of sexualized browsing /content. 
Ok today is day 0. I will beezras hasem get to 90
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Re: Destination - 90 days, A human beings journey. 12 Dec 2022 20:31 #389330

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108.
No sexual browsing or content. (Newspapers etc..) Day 1
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Re: Destination - 90 days, A human beings journey. 13 Dec 2022 06:32 #389357

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109 I have such a tiava to do sexualized browsing. But I will absolutely not. I cant. I will not tonight.
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Re: Destination - 90 days, A human beings journey. 13 Dec 2022 09:19 #389368

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Damn. i gave in to my desire to sexually browse. Of course didn't get me anywhere. This is the second time in 2 days doing this. I cant use my computer past night Seder anymore. done. period. over. Even if i cant get myself to sleep. Even if I'm bored as hell. i just cant. that's step 1. ok, beezras Hashem next Monday night will be day 7 of not lusting. (even if its not porn or masturbating. I'm going to buy myself a prize when i reach day 3.

What i mean by sexually browse is, there are 2 reasons i look for "content" 1) I'm turned on, or want to get turned on to distract myself from some sort of pain/feeling. 2) boredom. When i sexually browse because I'm bored, i don't even look at the content I'm browsing through for more then a second. I just follow link after link of things which are interesting sexually, to give me a little relief from feeling shbshsbshsbshb from doing nothing.  In that case, it usually turns into lust, but bh it hasn't yet the past few days, because I'm not addicted as i was before. But i must be honest with myself. Eventually it will turn to lust. I have to stop being in a position that i feel better browsing through crap at a computer, then doing a normal schedule of the day. I will be taking a 3 day brake from computers and internet. I got to get back on track. No computer till Friday. Sorry Hashem/tatty/aba. Thursday night I fress sushi for my prize.  Moving forward.
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Re: Destination - 90 days, A human beings journey. 14 Dec 2022 21:38 #389425

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Hatzlacha! You got this buddy!
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