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Giving a Genuine Try
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Scientific studies show that it takes 90 days to break an addictive pattern in the mind. Start your own Log of your journey to 90 days! Post here to update us on your status and to give each other chizuk to stay strong!

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Re: Giving a Genuine Try 09 Dec 2021 06:40 #374865

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Try reading skyward by Brandon Sanderson or steelheart.  These are fantasy series which are pretty clean. Very engaging as well.

Re: Giving a Genuine Try 09 Dec 2021 12:24 #374868

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How are you celebrating the 24 days? It is important to "make a siyum". It gives one the healthy attitude that he just accomplished something great and should get to it again (instead of focusing on the fall). Also, was the fall both pornography and masturbation? If not, keep a seperate cheshbon for the issue you remained clean with.
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Re: Giving a Genuine Try 14 Dec 2021 05:48 #374951

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Day #4
I was away for the weekend and was kept busy the whole time. This got me out of my rut and back onto track. I also made a new neder today. Iy"h I'm back on track to 90 days.
Signing off for the night, 
-Dvar Ha'emek
“Stop worrying about the world ending today. It’s already tomorrow in Australia.”
-Charlie Brown

Re: Giving a Genuine Try 14 Dec 2021 05:51 #374953

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Thank you everyone for the advice. I will check out the book recommendation. And I did do something special for the 24 days. 
“Stop worrying about the world ending today. It’s already tomorrow in Australia.”
-Charlie Brown

Re: Giving a Genuine Try 16 Dec 2021 02:13 #374992

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“In the book of life, the answers aren’t in the back.”
-Charlie Brown
“Stop worrying about the world ending today. It’s already tomorrow in Australia.”
-Charlie Brown

Re: Giving a Genuine Try 20 Dec 2021 05:05 #375084

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Had another fall this past night. I think it was because of the stress I was under from a number of things in my life. Going to pick myself up and get back on track tomorrow.
“Stop worrying about the world ending today. It’s already tomorrow in Australia.”
-Charlie Brown

Re: Giving a Genuine Try 28 Dec 2021 14:58 #375329

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Re: Giving a Genuine Try 07 Jan 2022 04:55 #375666

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Had a pretty bad fall the past two days. I don't really want to stay in the rut, but I can't seem to muster enough strength to pull myself out. Maybe tomorrow morning things will be better.
Signing off for the night,
-Dvar Ha'emek
“Stop worrying about the world ending today. It’s already tomorrow in Australia.”
-Charlie Brown

Re: Giving a Genuine Try 07 Jan 2022 09:38 #375672

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omekhadavar wrote on 07 Jan 2022 04:55:
Had a pretty bad fall the past two days. I don't really want to stay in the rut, but I can't seem to muster enough strength to pull myself out. Maybe tomorrow morning things will be better.
Signing off for the night,
-Dvar Ha'emek

as Rabbeinu Yonah writes in Yesoid Hateshuva:A man who has transgressed and sinned and comes to seek refuge under the "wings of the Shechina" (Divine presence) and to enter the ways of repentance, I will instruct you and enlighten you in the way that you should go.

On that day, he should cast all his sins which he did, and consider himself as if he was born today, and he has neither merit nor fault. And this day is the beginning of his actions. Today he should weigh his ways, in order that his steps not veer from the good path. And this way will bring him to return a complete teshuva (repentance). Because he will make himself as if he has cast from his shoulders the heaviness of the sins which he did. Therefore his thoughts will not haunt and confuse him to prevent him from repenting because he is embarrassed of his sins. For [his thoughts] will tell him:

"How could I be so brazen and repent, after I have sinned and transgressed, and I have done such and such, and doubled and tripled without end. How could I raise my face before Him like a thief which was caught, because I am embarassed to stand before Him. And also, how could I show myself in his courtyard (synagogue), how could I guard his laws?"

Don't think like this. Because the enticer (the evil inclination) sits like a fly in the chambers of the heart. He renews himself every day. He watches and waits to make him stumble, and he puts this evil advice in his heart (i.e. the destructive thoughts). Rather one should think: "because this is the mida (trait) of the Creator, yisbarach. His hand is outstretched to receive the penitent". Therefore it is good for him to cast off his sins and make for himself a new heart.
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Re: Giving a Genuine Try 07 Jan 2022 09:39 #375673

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Take it one day at a time and stand strong!
Feel free to reach out! jackthejewgye@gmail.com I'll do my best to try and listen! 
Hashem is always with you!
Life. Learning. Liberty from the Past

Re: Giving a Genuine Try 07 Jan 2022 09:49 #375674

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In terms of completely clean Non-Jewish books on Torah Umesora's Chinuch.org website there is a list of 4400 secular books that have been reviewed and graded based on content (last updated 2017, so if you're into following the latest series you're out of luck) there's an elementary/middle school list and a high school list. Both are downloadable as PDFs or Excel spreadsheets but you need to have a Chinuch.org account. The 2012 version of the list can be viewed and downloaded here rebeccaklempner.files.wordpress.com/2013/08/4552d_a_00663_booklist_comments_all_cover_2012.pdf
Feel free to reach out! jackthejewgye@gmail.com I'll do my best to try and listen! 
Hashem is always with you!
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Re: Giving a Genuine Try 07 Jan 2022 09:53 #375675

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The authors of the list have a website Kosherbooks.org. However all books give (at least some) of the reason for the ratings, so beware of possible triggers.
Feel free to reach out! jackthejewgye@gmail.com I'll do my best to try and listen! 
Hashem is always with you!
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Re: Giving a Genuine Try 17 Jan 2022 04:39 #376011

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Finally made it out of my rut and to day #7. I updated my filter, but I still need to get a new WebChaver, I don't think my current one checks the reports often. I think I entered the "pink cloud" that the Flight for Freedom talks about. It's nice to have minimal urges, but it's a little annoying that I have to wait a few weeks till I can utilize the tools from the program.
Signing off for the night,
-Dvar Ha'emek
“Stop worrying about the world ending today. It’s already tomorrow in Australia.”
-Charlie Brown

Re: Giving a Genuine Try 18 Jan 2022 04:28 #376071

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Day #8
Had absolutely no urges ... definitely in the "pink cloud." I started setting up an incentive program for getting me to 90 days.
Signing off for the night,
-Dvar Ha'emek
“Stop worrying about the world ending today. It’s already tomorrow in Australia.”
-Charlie Brown

Re: Giving a Genuine Try 20 Jan 2022 05:14 #376199

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Day #10
Today went really well. No urges. Still in the pink cloud...
Had the opportunity to finalize my plan and get ready for the tougher days.
Signing off for the night,
-Dvar Ha'emek
“Stop worrying about the world ending today. It’s already tomorrow in Australia.”
-Charlie Brown
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