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Re: my inner farm 14 Nov 2021 05:31 #374244

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I fell on Friday. I was having a stressful day but managed to fight my desire to let off steam but later in the day after stuff calmed down I fell 
The ultimate goal of farming is not the growing of crops, but the cultivation and perfection of human beings

Re: my inner farm 17 Dec 2021 03:57 #375015

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hey what's up
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Re: my inner farm 29 Dec 2021 00:24 #375346

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hi fell again still trying:neutral_face:
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Re: my inner farm 09 Jan 2022 21:09 #375734

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Hay farmer k. How are you managing?
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Re: my inner farm 10 Jan 2022 04:22 #375743

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thanks for asking, at an 8 day streak.  
just had a hard Shabbos, was by a married friends house, b"h was able to be sh"e but just the emotions that go through me when I see a married couple interacting with each other. 
whatever rambling again:stuck_out_tongue_winking_eye: but thanx for asking it does help
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Re: my inner farm 10 Jan 2022 13:09 #375752

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I think it's incredible that you were able to be shomer eiyneim. It really is such a tremendous challenge to be at table with נשים. And what you said about your emotions resonates very much with me. I remember countless times feeling very similarly over the past several years.
My recommendation based on my own experiences and falls in this area is, to whatever extent is possible, really, really avoid going out to Shabbos seudos with mixed attendance, ESPECIALLY on Friday nights, when the women are dressed to their best. It will just save you so much agony. Keep fighting! I am cheering for you!
As long as you keep fantasizing, you will never be able to stop masturbating.

As
long as you keep fantasizing, you will never be able to stop masturbating.

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long as you keep fantasizing, you will never be able to stop masturbating.

Re: my inner farm 16 Jan 2022 15:29 #375971

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farmer k. wrote on 24 Dec 2021 03:29:
hi… every morning I wake up with an erection no mater how I sleep, if anyone has advice for this it will be really appreciated


I believe it’s similar to wet dreams. 
Both these things can strangely disappear after you hit 90 days. 
So don’t stress over the small things.
Get yourself a Gye Chaver and hit the road!!
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Re: my inner farm 17 Jan 2022 03:53 #376008

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raaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah fell after a good 14 day streak 
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Re: my inner farm 17 Jan 2022 04:43 #376012

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It's not a fall, it's another road stop on the way to recovery.
Have you tried the Flight to Freedom program?
“Stop worrying about the world ending today. It’s already tomorrow in Australia.”
-Charlie Brown

Re: my inner farm 17 Jan 2022 10:12 #376017

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That's got to be frustrating. 
Remember that your 14 days of cleanliness will never ever go away. Your amazing! 
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Re: my inner farm 17 Jan 2022 20:59 #376051

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farmer k. wrote on 14 Nov 2021 05:31:
I fell on Friday. I was having a stressful day but managed to fight my desire to let off steam but later in the day after stuff calmed down I fell 

Sing with me

”I fell on a Monday on a MAC cos I was too stressed,
I fell on Friday on a MAC cos I was too chilled,
With a Click Click here and a Mouse Mouse there,
My old MAC had a Dirty Farm e i è ï ô”




Now, how are we gonna clean up this mess?
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Re: my inner farm 20 Jan 2022 03:26 #376197

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4 days not doing great but keeping clean
The ultimate goal of farming is not the growing of crops, but the cultivation and perfection of human beings

Re: my inner farm 20 Jan 2022 05:43 #376200

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farmer k. wrote on 20 Jan 2022 03:26:
4 days not doing great but keeping clean

thats GREAT!!
For an explanation on my choice of username and avatar see my first post 

Re: my inner farm 23 Jan 2022 07:46 #376338

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7 days clean
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Re: my inner farm 24 Jan 2022 04:45 #376385

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I wish I could put the pain to words, maybe a poem about it but I guess my pain is just going to be as is. I screwed up, I kept a phone that I could have put on service whenever I wanted, and it was an unlocked phone. It started a pretty simple, a stupid TV show even though I know that the emotions in it will hurt me. Well yes, it caused me to fall. I feel like my life's a mess and I can’t deal with it. However, I look up and realize that there is a reason for everything I'm going through, this whole fight is just to bring glory to the one and only.

Well truth be told my falls now aren't as big as they once were, and are much more spread apart.

So please help me God that it should have a happy conclusion, an ending that I will be proud of, an ending that I can say, “this was where I got to, with my blood, sweat, and tears”.

 I want a life of true love not of romance. The life of work, a life of sweat, a life of glorifying your name.

I am taking this fight to The Bitter End because that is what I am here for. It is so simple yet so complicated. I feel so spent but in this tiredness is my strength, cuz’ my strength is by sticking to my guns even when I’m down, and to keep fighting.

So long,

Farmer k.

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