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TOPIC: my inner farm 2031 Views

Re: my inner farm 14 Sep 2021 18:50 #372455

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farmer k. wrote on 14 Sep 2021 18:38:
had an terrible fall Friday still traumatized. I went further then I ever did i'll maybe elaborate further in a later post

Let's hope that either this was your rock bottom or it was your “Hit bottom while still on top.”
The main thing is not to give up...  Try to learn from your fall what to avoid and how to be strong in the future. 
"If I am not for myself, who will be for me? But if I am only for myself, who am I? If not now, when?"
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Re: my inner farm 06 Oct 2021 04:53 #372985

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Where is the farmer?
Feel free to contact me at michelgelner@gmail.com

My threads: Lessons Learned: guardyoureyes.com/forum/20-Important-Threads/335248-Lessons-Learned

                    My Story and G-d Bless GYE: guardyoureyes.com/forum/17-Balei-Battims-Forum/303036-My-story-and-G-d-bless-GYE

Re: my inner farm 06 Oct 2021 15:06 #372996

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I'm still around,
but if I cant be found,
means I am busy as can be ,
on this bain ha'z'
The ultimate goal of farming is not the growing of crops, but the cultivation and perfection of human beings

Re: my inner farm 07 Oct 2021 03:42 #373025

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and i start again
yes i know again
again brings with all his friends called bad feelings from last time, 
so here goes i am starting my 90 day journey right now
The ultimate goal of farming is not the growing of crops, but the cultivation and perfection of human beings

Re: my inner farm 07 Oct 2021 05:55 #373034

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we've got your back
as you get on track
​so give your best
and pass each test

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ה׳ עמך גבור החיל! [שופטים ו׳ יב׳]

 Perhaps you can find chizuk from my thread at guardyoureyes.com/forum/19-Introduce-Yourself/356161-Intro 

Feel free to reach out to me at
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Re: my inner farm 08 Oct 2021 11:26 #373077

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A "moo" was heard from the farmer's cow,
   but really he meant to say "Wow!"
His master started 90 days,
   of walking in Hashem's ways.

The goats bleat back showing they too are content,
  yes, Master will now receive bracha, Heaven sent,
The farm fowl excitedly chirp, singing sweet,
   Yep, Farmer's on track, and can't be beat. 
Feel free to contact me at michelgelner@gmail.com

My threads: Lessons Learned: guardyoureyes.com/forum/20-Important-Threads/335248-Lessons-Learned

                    My Story and G-d Bless GYE: guardyoureyes.com/forum/17-Balei-Battims-Forum/303036-My-story-and-G-d-bless-GYE

Re: my inner farm 17 Oct 2021 22:39 #373369

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day 1 again
The ultimate goal of farming is not the growing of crops, but the cultivation and perfection of human beings

Re: my inner farm 18 Oct 2021 02:28 #373377

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I don't know whether this is your first day one since the last you posted, or whether there have been several - either way you can take Chizuk in the fact that you've made to this point - a 10 day streak is something to be proud of, and getting back after several falls is certainly something that can be very challenging. Either way, keep posting so we can cheer you on!
אין הדבר תלוי אלא בי
אלמלא הקב"ה עוזרו לא יכול לו
זרע אברהם אוהבי

Re: my inner farm 22 Oct 2021 04:32 #373490

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day 6
The ultimate goal of farming is not the growing of crops, but the cultivation and perfection of human beings

Re: my inner farm 22 Oct 2021 11:37 #373503

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farmer k. wrote on 22 Oct 2021 04:32:
day 6

Re: day 6
ששת ימים חעבוד

ובזכות של עבודה של ששת ימים לכבוד שמים תזכו לחיים של שמחה ונחת והרחבת הדעת
Demolished is my real name
Fool is my middle name

Re: my inner farm 24 Oct 2021 04:15 #373544

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"ha what a funny joke" about a half hour after I posted "day 6" I went and fell. after that I fell a few times that night, but b"h pulled myself out of the rut on eruv Shabbos, worked on myself a bit on Shabbos by telling myself that even though I fell now, this time could still be it. one thing that actually helped me a lot, was I visualizes thinking to myself or telling someone in a few years from now, how the time I finally broke free was a pretty low moment for me and I thought I'd be stuck in this rut my whole life. what helped me wasn't the fact that I visualized it, what helped me was that I realized that even now I really have the יכולת to stop for good. 
whatever thanks for reading my ramblings
(p.s. idk a thing about grammar and I'd love to learn if anyone knows a good book on it please lmk)
The ultimate goal of farming is not the growing of crops, but the cultivation and perfection of human beings

Re: my inner farm 24 Oct 2021 19:26 #373563

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farmer k. wrote on 24 Oct 2021 04:15:
"ha what a funny joke" about a half hour after I posted "day 6" I went and fell. 

Lots of things were accomplished by the 6 day war. 
Demolished is my real name
Fool is my middle name

Re: my inner farm 31 Oct 2021 06:00 #373733

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9 days, and doing great b"h
The ultimate goal of farming is not the growing of crops, but the cultivation and perfection of human beings

Re: my inner farm 12 Nov 2021 01:45 #374211

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at day 4 again
The ultimate goal of farming is not the growing of crops, but the cultivation and perfection of human beings

Re: my inner farm 12 Nov 2021 03:48 #374215

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Good to see you back at it!
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