I’m having an incredible day so far in terms of happiness and productivity. I don’t think I would be exaggerating by saying that I haven’t felt this good in six months, since the onset of a deep depression that lasted from Pesach till now. I’ve been slowly crawling out of it, BH, but today was a massive leap. I do not recall such a day of productivity, happiness and fulfilment in a long time.
I’ll avoid using this forum as my personal journal, (as I am won’t to do.

) but I have stumbled upon a formula that I can replicate bez”h to go back to living a happy and successful life. And as it relates to GYE struggles-I have absolutely no desire for any of the garbage that I keep falling into over the past few weeks and months. It’s just not appealing.
I know that in the past I have made the case on this site that depression and pornography/mastubration should be viewed as separate issues and addressed individually , but I now see the other side of things. Tayva is endemic to the human male condition, but the obsessive pursual of it is most often-if not always-a result of a deep feeling of emptiness and depression. A happy me is a me much better equipped to avoiding the first slip. An unhappy me is a me that sees it’s only (temporary and fleeting) salvation in acting out sexually.
May Hashem bless us all with clarity so that we may find happiness, success and purity, and to spend our lives fulfilling the aspiration so beautifully expressed by the sweet singer of Israel
שבתי בבית ה כל ימי חיי, לחזות בנועם ה ולבקר בהיכלו