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OivedElokim-I’ll never give up
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Re: OivedElokim-I’ll never give up 12 Sep 2021 02:11 #372353

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Having a major tayva to go somewhere where I can watch porn. Gonna go out to eat instead to celebrate a week clean. Hope that puts my יצר הרע to sleep.
For the background to my name- see Tanya פרק טו.
״שההפרש בין עובד אלוקים לצדיק הוא שעובד הוא לשון הווה, שהוא באמצע העבודה״
-Oived Elokim means a constant work in progress...
“Every saint has a past, and every sinner has a future”.

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Re: OivedElokim-I’ll never give up 12 Sep 2021 04:36 #372354

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I”m really enjoying this forum. It’s extremely encouraging and empowering. I fell tonight but I’m super excited to get up and finally get into it and break free once and for all!

Re: OivedElokim-I’ll never give up 12 Sep 2021 04:37 #372355

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I really want to masturbate now. I’m full of tayva. 
For the background to my name- see Tanya פרק טו.
״שההפרש בין עובד אלוקים לצדיק הוא שעובד הוא לשון הווה, שהוא באמצע העבודה״
-Oived Elokim means a constant work in progress...
“Every saint has a past, and every sinner has a future”.

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Re: OivedElokim-I’ll never give up 12 Sep 2021 20:45 #372378

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After I posted last night I fell while texting with a GYE friend. I took a very drastic step to prevent future falls, one that I was very reluctant to take  but I did it nonetheless. I may elaborate on this in a future post.
For the background to my name- see Tanya פרק טו.
״שההפרש בין עובד אלוקים לצדיק הוא שעובד הוא לשון הווה, שהוא באמצע העבודה״
-Oived Elokim means a constant work in progress...
“Every saint has a past, and every sinner has a future”.

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Re: OivedElokim-I’ll never give up 12 Sep 2021 20:45 #372379

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Fell again today 
For the background to my name- see Tanya פרק טו.
״שההפרש בין עובד אלוקים לצדיק הוא שעובד הוא לשון הווה, שהוא באמצע העבודה״
-Oived Elokim means a constant work in progress...
“Every saint has a past, and every sinner has a future”.

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Re: OivedElokim-I’ll never give up 12 Sep 2021 20:46 #372381

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I really don’t believe I’ll make it to 90 days, even 30 days anytime soon. Very disappointed and discouraged.
For the background to my name- see Tanya פרק טו.
״שההפרש בין עובד אלוקים לצדיק הוא שעובד הוא לשון הווה, שהוא באמצע העבודה״
-Oived Elokim means a constant work in progress...
“Every saint has a past, and every sinner has a future”.

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Re: OivedElokim-I’ll never give up 12 Sep 2021 20:51 #372382

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Feel like giving up. Gotta change the title of this thread…
For the background to my name- see Tanya פרק טו.
״שההפרש בין עובד אלוקים לצדיק הוא שעובד הוא לשון הווה, שהוא באמצע העבודה״
-Oived Elokim means a constant work in progress...
“Every saint has a past, and every sinner has a future”.

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Re: OivedElokim-I’ll never give up 13 Sep 2021 01:25 #372388

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Warning: In this post I will discuss a seemingly benign app that has been a big מכשול for me. Don’t want to give anybody any ideas, so proceed to open the spoiler at your own risk ⛔️  ⚠️ (Thanks @wngu for the format idea )
:pinch: Warning: Spoiler!
For the background to my name- see Tanya פרק טו.
״שההפרש בין עובד אלוקים לצדיק הוא שעובד הוא לשון הווה, שהוא באמצע העבודה״
-Oived Elokim means a constant work in progress...
“Every saint has a past, and every sinner has a future”.

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Last Edit: 13 Sep 2021 01:37 by OivedElokim.

Re: OivedElokim-I’ll never give up 13 Sep 2021 02:07 #372390

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I am profoundly impressed by you.
I as well listen to podcasts as an outlet and can imagine how hard it must be to cut it all out.
One possible eitza is to get specific apps for the podcasts u listen to.
Idk about the Jewish ones but political ones like Daily Wire (Ben Shapiro etc) etc are available.

Re: OivedElokim-I’ll never give up 13 Sep 2021 03:01 #372391

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That is a hard move - shows your commitment 
theres an app called yidpod has only Jewish podcasts, I’m not sure how good it is but definitely worth checking out .
Also Torah anytime just released their new and improved App , I found it to be way more enjoyable to use. ( when is Gye gonna do that ?)

hatzlacha!

Re: OivedElokim-I’ll never give up 14 Sep 2021 16:39 #372445

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Haven’t been having a great עשרת ימי תשובה in any regard. Sleeping in a lot, not learning much. Falling a lot. 

I took another step today and deleted an app I use to buy books on that i used to get borderline pictures and caused many falls. I now have no way of ordering books to read which was going to be my replacement outlet after podcasts. I hope that’ll help me stay clean and give me some זכותים going into יום כיפור… 
For the background to my name- see Tanya פרק טו.
״שההפרש בין עובד אלוקים לצדיק הוא שעובד הוא לשון הווה, שהוא באמצע העבודה״
-Oived Elokim means a constant work in progress...
“Every saint has a past, and every sinner has a future”.

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Re: OivedElokim-I’ll never give up 14 Sep 2021 16:47 #372447

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OivedElokim wrote on 14 Sep 2021 16:39:
Haven’t been having a great עשרת ימי תשובה in any regard. Sleeping in a lot, not learning much. Falling a lot. 

I took another step today and deleted an app I use to buy books on that i used to get borderline pictures and caused many falls. I now have no way of ordering books to read which was going to be my replacement outlet after podcasts. I hope that’ll help me stay clean and give me some זכותים going into יום כיפור… 

You look at it as not having a great עשרת ימי תשובה 
Hashem looks at things differently...
He knows how hard it is for you. He cares for you. He says "my OivedElokim took another step today and deleted an app to buy books on that caused many falls! He's amazing!"
Just keep on celebrating the not so small achievements...
"If I am not for myself, who will be for me? But if I am only for myself, who am I? If not now, when?"
feel free to reach out @  ahavayirah@gmail.com

Re: OivedElokim-I’ll never give up 15 Sep 2021 20:02 #372494

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גמר חתימה טובה!

For the background to my name- see Tanya פרק טו.
״שההפרש בין עובד אלוקים לצדיק הוא שעובד הוא לשון הווה, שהוא באמצע העבודה״
-Oived Elokim means a constant work in progress...
“Every saint has a past, and every sinner has a future”.

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Re: OivedElokim-I’ll never give up 19 Sep 2021 01:47 #372539

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Fell 
For the background to my name- see Tanya פרק טו.
״שההפרש בין עובד אלוקים לצדיק הוא שעובד הוא לשון הווה, שהוא באמצע העבודה״
-Oived Elokim means a constant work in progress...
“Every saint has a past, and every sinner has a future”.

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Last Edit: 19 Sep 2021 01:48 by OivedElokim.

Re: OivedElokim-I’ll never give up 19 Sep 2021 05:38 #372548

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i-man wrote on 13 Sep 2021 03:01:
That is a hard move - shows your commitment 
theres an app called yidpod has only Jewish podcasts, I’m not sure how good it is but definitely worth checking out .
Also Torah anytime just released their new and improved App , I found it to be way more enjoyable to use. ( when is Gye gonna do that ?)

hatzlacha!

I don't understand? Deleting one app at a time? Why not tag the phone or get rid of the smart phone all together?

Just askin'
My Thread:The Road To Being Honest With Myself (and others:)

I'm not a slow learner, I'm just quick to forget" - Eli Nash

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