Day 74

I would like to take this opportunity to update you all on my progress.

I've been out of Yeshiva for awhile. Was going through stuff. Got back recently. I'm really seeing a lot of Hatzlacha in my learning, davening etc. More then ever.
I know that much of that is due to my efforts in the area of Kedusha.
So that'll be one of my 90,000 reasons....

Anyways, I want to wish all of the courageous and valiant warriors on here all the best, and success in this struggle, as well as all others.

May we merit to see the fruits of our labor very soon, with the speedy arrival of Moshiach, when we will be able to make sense of all that we are going through...

A Gut Chodesh

A Gut Shabbos

Day 79

Just discovered a loophole in my new phones restrictions. I’m on alert until I block it later today. 

Otherwise I’m doing well.

11 days left till i reach the magic number of 90. For the second time this year...

Thank you Hashem!

Day 80!

Fixed the loophole.

Shoot

I fell Friday night 

I fell because I let my guard down, and I read a book I shouldn’t have read.

I know it’ll be hard, but I can’t afford to read all the novels I’d like to. It’s too dangerous.

No more romance novels. No more porn. No more touching myself for pleasure. No more lying on my stomach. 

The price is too high.

Why is it that I’m focusing on the two times I fell instead of the 82 times I didn’t ...?

Also I need ways to cope with being alone late on Friday night. Most of my falls are then

Can’t find the exact Daf , but the גמרא says in סוטה:

אין עבירה מכבה מצוה.

It’s important to remember at times like these...