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Singularity's Journey
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Re: Singularity's Journey 07 Mar 2017 02:16 #307617

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I was not sarcastic. I got 5 emails.
If you're an LGBTQ or LGBTQ-questioning person and looking for someone who can understand you, feel free to reach out. I promise no judgement and to try and listen the best I can. 

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Re: Singularity's Journey 07 Mar 2017 02:21 #307618

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Shlomo24 wrote on 07 Mar 2017 02:16:
I was not sarcastic. I got 5 emails.

B"H!

Mi k'amcha Yisroel!
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If one gives up at the first sign of a struggle, he is really not ready to be successful."
"Tryin' and doin' are two different thin's - tryin' is hopin'; doin' is succeedin'.
"The right thin' to do and the hard thin' to do are usually the same."


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Re: Singularity's Journey 07 Mar 2017 08:46 #307632

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Anyone wish to nitpick my chizuk email?
"Vegeta, what does the scouter say about his sobriety level?"
"... It's over NINE-ZEROOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!"

One day... At A Time :-D


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Re: Singularity's Journey 07 Mar 2017 15:03 #307684

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Anywho

So on Sunday I did a 19.3km route! And about 18.6km of that was continuous running! I love going far, to places you think you can only go by car. And in the early hours of the morning as the sun rose. 

Now I've never run this far before. And I realised something.

The deeper you get into something, the trickier you need to get.

So short runs, sure. No need to eat or drink in between. Maybe have a tiny boost before, but usually you're good to go. Longer runs, however, require more tact. On several points.

I gotta learn how to eat / drink in between. And I read that means I need to walk in between because gulping and running is dangerous. And I need to learn how life is not just one big run. There are times to slow down. It's a big step for me.

I ate healthily for 4 weeks, BH. So we got mad amounts of sushi. But I couldn't finish it all. I said, "Well, I'll leave some over for lunch tomorrow." My wife was shocked. She was like, "You actually realise that you don't have to finish it all now?"

Maybe I did.

Maybe not everything needs to be fixed at the same time. That's a lustful behaviour. If it don't get fixed, I'ma get my fix!

I think the lust is a lot looser on me. That's profound. 
"Vegeta, what does the scouter say about his sobriety level?"
"... It's over NINE-ZEROOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!"

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Re: Singularity's Journey 09 Mar 2017 21:49 #307938

That's some serious running!

I think (for what it's worth) that you're spot on about perfection feeding addictions. If a person is content he wouldn't look for something to alter his mind-state. He feels good as is.

Sometimes we say we're going to do something positive like volunteering or learn something extra to change our mind-state, sometimes it will be a fix. 

Nothing can tempt a man who's content. 

(These ideas are discussed in the book I wrote about on my thread) 
If you are really bored, you can check out my original thread here: guardyoureyes.com/forum/4-On-the-Way-to-90-Days/305558-Journey-of-one-day-at-a-time 

"Think good and it will be good!"

Re: Singularity's Journey 12 Mar 2017 01:56 #308011

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That is some really nice running - awesome! As for not needing to fix everything at once...that exactly the point of "one day at a time," isn't it? We're not aiming for always perfect, forever - we're aiming for living in the solution, for improvement. 

Re: Singularity's Journey 13 Mar 2017 13:59 #308045

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Thanks all, for your love.

Slowly digesting the ODAAT. It does make things a lot calmer. Just gotta sit in the problem sometimes.

Parnossa troubles big time. And I asked for a raise and was rejected, but on the grounds of "We don't really know if you're valuable; we're determining it, so we can't possible also give you a raise".

Very dejecting, for sure. Yes, the other department I was in (check the history of my thread) I really disliked, but does that mean my name is blackened forever? Hell, If I were to leave, the whole system will crash. And if that were to happen c"v then I'll tell em straight, I'm leaving for good, 100%, I'm not fixing up your system unless you hire me as a freelancer and pay me the hundreds of dollars an hour you'd have to get an expert technician to come and fix the system. 

Not sure if the work is now taking advantage of me.

Though I am grateful for the current parnossah. But with seemingly no growth prospects in this company and debt of around $5000, another kid coming and no end to expenses, I am at a total loss.

Cannot see the next step

I surrender it, whatever it is. Hashem. Take me to where you want me to be.
"Vegeta, what does the scouter say about his sobriety level?"
"... It's over NINE-ZEROOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!"

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Re: Singularity's Journey 30 Mar 2017 10:06 #309679

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I read through my thread. I see the posts are getting progressively more depressing.

But I want to think I'm a happy guy.

BH all is going well. 

Though boy do I want to act out! GRR!!....

BH Haven't raped anyone in a long time

Women are unnerving me. I flipped through a magazine yesterday, about food and recipes, 'cause I thought maybe there'd be some woman. There was. I put it down. Ugh.

Getting caught up in my head. Played a good game of squash yesterday.

My truck's on an icy patch for sure!!!!
"Vegeta, what does the scouter say about his sobriety level?"
"... It's over NINE-ZEROOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!"

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Re: Singularity's Journey 30 Mar 2017 10:11 #309680

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SINGULARITY STOOOOORMMM!!!

"Vegeta, what does the scouter say about his sobriety level?"
"... It's over NINE-ZEROOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!"

One day... At A Time :-D


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Re: Singularity's Journey 30 Mar 2017 13:17 #309693

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Singularity wrote on 30 Mar 2017 10:06:
I read through my thread. I see the posts are getting progressively more depressing.

But I want to think I'm a happy guy.

BH all is going well. 

Though boy do I want to act out! GRR!!....

BH Haven't raped anyone in a long time

Women are unnerving me. I flipped through a magazine yesterday, about food and recipes, 'cause I thought maybe there'd be some woman. There was. I put it down. Ugh.

Getting caught up in my head. Played a good game of squash yesterday.

My truck's on an icy patch for sure!!!!

Eat the squash and play with your woman.
My email: thenewme613@hotmail.com
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GYE Handbook | Gibbor's Insights | GYE FAQ - Thanks Skep and DMS123456789 White Book | Big Book (Alcoholics Anonymous)

If one gives up at the first sign of a struggle, he is really not ready to be successful."
"Tryin' and doin' are two different thin's - tryin' is hopin'; doin' is succeedin'.
"The right thin' to do and the hard thin' to do are usually the same."


Disclaimer: I am not a cheerleader; B"H, there are many on the site. I am here to change myself, and with God's help, by some mistake, I might even help change others.

MY POSTS ARE NOT WRITTEN AS A MODERATOR UNLESS EXPLICITLY STATED.

Re: Singularity's Journey 02 Apr 2017 13:18 #309878

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Singularity wrote on 30 Mar 2017 10:11:
SINGULARITY STOOOOORMMM!!!


You are 118 days to late
very important thread: guardyoureyes.com/forum/20-Important-Threads/19180-FEEL-THE-HUGS%21%21%21" option="guardyoureyes.com/forum/20-Important-Threads/19180-FEEL-THE-HUGS%21%21%21">FEEL THE HUGS!!!

Re: Singularity's Journey 03 Apr 2017 00:38 #309912

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Just finished reading you whole thread, great story. Keep up the great work, and keep on singin' (you see I picked up something).

BTW who started the whole trucking business, is it markz?
My Thread:The Road To Being Honest With Myself (and others:)

I'm not a slow learner, I'm just quick to forget" - Eli Nash

A bit of honesty and less over confidence might help me - Imperfection

Re: Singularity's Journey 03 Apr 2017 01:04 #309914

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Hakolhevel wrote on 03 Apr 2017 00:38:
Just finished reading you whole thread, great story. Keep up the great work, and keep on singin' (you see I picked up something).

BTW who started the whole trucking business, is it markz?

Singin'.....?

What's with the other words?
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GYE Handbook | Gibbor's Insights | GYE FAQ - Thanks Skep and DMS123456789 White Book | Big Book (Alcoholics Anonymous)

If one gives up at the first sign of a struggle, he is really not ready to be successful."
"Tryin' and doin' are two different thin's - tryin' is hopin'; doin' is succeedin'.
"The right thin' to do and the hard thin' to do are usually the same."


Disclaimer: I am not a cheerleader; B"H, there are many on the site. I am here to change myself, and with God's help, by some mistake, I might even help change others.

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Re: Singularity's Journey 03 Apr 2017 01:13 #309915

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Hakolhevel wrote on 03 Apr 2017 00:38:
Just finished reading you whole thread, great story. Keep up the great work, and keep on singin' (you see I picked up something).

BTW who started the whole trucking business, is it markz?

I was in diapers trading toy trucks when it was instituted by the REBBE from Bardsville

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Re: Singularity's Journey 03 Apr 2017 03:37 #309925

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Singin'.....? What's with the other words?
Being as there are are so many Pirushim to his name, I left it kinda open over there (singed, singular, singing and of course singularity)

I was in diapers trading toy trucks when it was instituted by the REBBE from Bardsville

guardyoureyes.com/forum/advsearch?q=Keep+on+trucking&searchdate=all&order=inc&limit=20

KEEP ON TRUCKKING


And I thought you cords and Dov where the oldest people on this forum

Once again posting images on this thread

KOBT (keep on baby trucking?)
My Thread:The Road To Being Honest With Myself (and others:)

I'm not a slow learner, I'm just quick to forget" - Eli Nash

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